Month: April 2017

I remember that up until rather recently, whenever I heard a lesson or message on the Israelites, I’d think about how dumb they are for not trusting God for the best and taking things into their own hands i.e. when Joshua and squad visited #thepromisedland and the losers were like “nah we can’t divide and conquer because they are way too cool” and then God was like ” oh yea? well, now you’re never going to see it.” Why wouldn’t they trust God? They had seen so many miracles, and yet, this one challenge seemed too big. And me, let’s say sub-18 years, knew better. Why?

Because I had true, pure, child-like faith.

Here’s the deal-io yo. I got somewhat educated. My friends start looking like they have some control over their lives( the facade and sheen of looking put together and having your ducks in a row). I acquired some means of logic and common sense( hah, yea right).  I’ve experienced the limitations of life aka I’ve lived a short while.

I’ve broken down life and faith to a science. It’s a process document. If I do XYZ, by logic, the “then” must occur. The then is a nice guarantee. It’s cushy. And it’s a fallacy.

Only that’s not how God works. He has the best in store and if we, humans in our infinite knowledge and wisdom( pls note sarcasm), think we have absolutely anything to do with the nonsense of making decisions, ok, think that and then you’ll never know what blessings you’ve missed out on.

I’m preaching to myself, of course. A friend of mine and I are at a sensitive time( LOL SPEAKING OF EDUCATION). The difference is that she has to pick between ivy’s and I have to stay alive until I get to pick( or just drop out lol bye). Seemingly, one would automatically have opinions of her current situation because it’s seems luxurious. I hate to break it to you. It isn’t. And as for me, I’m trying to take it one day at a time because if I have a moment to spare, that’s where my mind will wander: the possibilities of total and utter rejection( my mind is a dark place).

^{2 Corinthians 10:2}But I beseech you, that I may not be bold when I am present with that confidence, wherewith I think to be bold against some, which think of us as if we walked according to the flesh. ³For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh: ⁴(For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;) ⁵Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ; ⁶And having in a readiness to revenge all disobedience, when your obedience is fulfilled. is Christ’s, even so are we Christ’s.⁷Do ye look on things after the outward appearance? If any man trust to himself that he is Christ’s, let him of himself think this again, that, as he is Christ’s, even so are we Christ’s. ⁸For though I should boast somewhat more of our authority, which the Lord hath given us for edification, and not for your destruction, I should not be ashamed:

Adults, thanks for working so hard to look so nice( verse 7). Instead, be real and transparent with your daily challenges. No individual is perfect( pls introduce if you think someone is; looking at any chick or dude that is infatuated with someone and blinded) and maybe some kid is looking at you, with your choices and edits, thinking they can do the same if they simply take the reigns.

I’m not saying live like a wreck and don’t have a plan or work hard or be complacent. No way. But sometimes God wants to keep us in one spot. Sometimes Twitter makes an offer and you know it’s not the right time for you. Sometimes He wants us to move. He wants us to move right out of our comfort zone so we can totally rely on Him and His goodness and rest in His love.

#staywokefam

And for those who are authentically thriving in God’s will, continue.

Because i c u

I was reading old drafts. They go back to a year an a half ago.

There are (exactly) thirty and it was interesting to read back what was on my mind and how many developed thoughts were left unattended.

That’s what happens when writing isn’t much of a priority.

The topic of priorities has come up often lately and it’s safe to say that I’m rather content with mine: God, family, friends, school, work, the end kinda. Much and many have served as attempts at distractions. I’ve almost succumbed to a few. I haven’t.

It’s rather empowering. There’s definitely a ‘but’ in here.

As I write this, Reba and Boomers are chilling with me. It’s April 4th, 2017.

It’s a big month. It’s a very big month. It’s the month.

Caits and I are anxious but not anxious and putting everything through prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving. It’s. So. Hard. Priorities are being balanced while I’m mentally in 5 places, trying to be present in the moment, and appreciate what’s in front of me.

There’s much to be thankful for. As usual. As always. It’s overwhelming.

Oh, my office is moving downtown. That’s cool. I have a window, corner area to myself and a lot of my compadres are nearby. I’ll be two blocks from a good fried chicken place. And it’s cheaper to eat than at Mission Bay. I’ll miss being waterfront. It’ll be the first time in over a year that I’m not working at a waterfront building.

#spoiledpeopleproblems

I really want to do a recap post. I might try to do that after this month is over and my head has cleared but for now, I’ll push out some W H A C K and R A N D O M posts.

Thanks for chilling 🙂